Blows to the heart of a Muslim. [Where are you aching Muslims??]

BISMILLAHI RAHMANI RAHEEM

Assalam Alaikum!

It's been a while since this heart of mine has received a blow (Do people use this word in north america? I don't know I never heard anyone use it.) These blows, or rather these  "aches" usually come about when there's something that's offended you or hurt you. In my case it's usually comments from people but specifically the ones on Islam, especially on stuff I don't understand yet myself.

One of the greatest "aches" was from a girl who left Islam.

"I had too many questions and no one could answer them." 

It probably hurt me a lot because of the fact that we were the same in a way. Both of us lacked enough understanding but the difference was after hearing her say those words, I wrapped my Islam tighter, or I at least tried to. All the while I search to reach this level of some understanding.

                                                      

 Now flash back forward, this time I managed to give myself a jab at my heart. It happened when I was listening to an  imam's podcast. He mention something that unsettled me. Don't we have these problems at times? I know a Muslim friend of mine who had an issue with something regarding the cultural aspect of the Arabs back then, which happened to be something that I was confused about, but with knowledge I was able to understand it better afterwards.

That was for me. what about you?  If a question or disturbing thought came to you would you try to solve it or ignore it? In my friends case when I tried to explain to her the situation she rejected it even more. You have to be understanding! There are certain things that require you to be open minded. For example the concept of marrying your own sibling during Adam's (as) time is disturbing but you got to understand the times have changed and still do.


If some comes at you and hurts you, try what I usually do which is always think that there's a deficiency in My understanding and that I should learn more. I have all sorts of deficiencies the biggest at the moment is the fact that I can't hear the miracle of the quran with my own ears. (I kind of envy Arabs but I'm glad I'm not one because I probably would've had some sort of pride issue. This is my own self evaluation not an insult based on others.) You got to think to yourself that there must be a reasoning for whatever is happening and be open minded when it comes to learning.

Sometimes I don't find the answer while I'm searching for it but with all the knowledge I have, at times it just...clicks! This isn't only for Islamic studies, but anything. Sometimes you have the puzzle pieces but you have to put them together to make sense out of them.

So please don't give up if you're "aching" in the heart, be patient and don't expect that everything will come down to you in a revelation just for you because you'd be dreaming. Get up and do something about it.\ What I first started out doing was listening to videos that were short even though the thought of doing so bored me at first especially when it comes to radio stations. I find that one of the best time to  learn is when you're on the go to somewhere and you're travelling alone. Try to confirm what you learn though.

Don't be listening to music when you could be learning on the go!

I leave you with that ( If anyone's here at all) until Thursday Inshallah.

If I offended you then forgive me because that was NOT my intentions.

Wasalaam Alaikum.